Ivanov
02-07-2013, 21:59
You want to know my story? Well havent wrote before, so here I go..
I'm just a random guy, which has been a bit lonely lately.It's not because I
cant find a girlfriend, just not that type of person.It's not a big deal, dont
even think anybody will read this, Practicly I'm writing it for me, because
I have nothing left to do..I was a idiot, I loved a girl so much, and I screwed
things up..Because I was a kid, its not a story of life and death, Just a normal
story of a guy that has been screwed a lot of times, after that one screw he did...
Had a hard childhood, dealed with it.Had a hard teenage years, dealed with it...
Loved a girl so much that you cant imagine..I was dumb and he lost her, because
of myself.Nothing interesting till here..Not making anybody read this..
Just my random love story for everybody..I dont like sharing with people
which I know that are close to me. I've always been a fighter, never gived up
to anything, I'm not the best person,I'm not the kindess thing on earth,I'm nothing
special,I'm myself like every single person on this planet..I'm trying to be good
I've made mistakes, I've took a lot consequences that I wasn't responssible..
I've had a pretty strong mentality, but I feel like I lost it...I'm totally
broken for sure...It's a hard thing to explain especially when your just a
normal guy that hasn't got the best english..I really love this girl, I believe
I will love her to the rest of my pathetic life, because im praticly living
on a prayer, I've been alone so long that I cant even say I felt anything, but
pain the past few years..Yeah it sounds so childish I know..A guy falls in love
screws things up and now he regrets it i'm disguisted of myself, because the
other me would, come on dude cheer up, nothing happend your young you have your
life infront of you, you'll meet other women and you'll be happy.I dont think
I will love a girl like this anymore...This opportunity, this feeling comes
once in a lifetime..If somebody loved anybody more than himself, they would know
what I am talking about..Wouldn't share my thoughts like this in public but I
am willing to take a shot and see what happends what people would tell me..
I would like to say something towards this girl I WILL ALWAYS LOVE..
The days that I havent seen your face are the worst days in my life, they are
making me grow older, I would never hurt you again, as I did before...
I was one selfish bastard, that had his own problems but he dealed with them.
The point is that I didn't know what to do and I hurted you not on purpose
I was young and stupid I will regret this thing my entire life. I think about you
baby, I dream about you, I had the most beautiful dream, that you were still
with me baby..I loved girls after you, but never loved a girl as strong as I loved
you...I've been hurt through some awful ways that I dont wish any of you be hurted
I'm fine I am really fine dont need any help, but I'm just not happy and this emptiness
inside me is killing me day by day, I can't tell if I deserve it but I'm doing
my best I'm to be the best I can with all the people I know, yeah i've been a
dick to a lot of people, I regret a lot of words that I cant bring back, I'm really
sorry If I abused somebody..I know usually a sorry doesn't makes things up
But I've did what I could to be forgiven from most people, Love is Evil
Spell it backwards (Evol) It always hurts, but this hurt I'm feeling now
Its worth it I prefer feeling hurt instead of being with another girl than you,
Sunshine.....
I'm just a random guy, which has been a bit lonely lately.It's not because I
cant find a girlfriend, just not that type of person.It's not a big deal, dont
even think anybody will read this, Practicly I'm writing it for me, because
I have nothing left to do..I was a idiot, I loved a girl so much, and I screwed
things up..Because I was a kid, its not a story of life and death, Just a normal
story of a guy that has been screwed a lot of times, after that one screw he did...
Had a hard childhood, dealed with it.Had a hard teenage years, dealed with it...
Loved a girl so much that you cant imagine..I was dumb and he lost her, because
of myself.Nothing interesting till here..Not making anybody read this..
Just my random love story for everybody..I dont like sharing with people
which I know that are close to me. I've always been a fighter, never gived up
to anything, I'm not the best person,I'm not the kindess thing on earth,I'm nothing
special,I'm myself like every single person on this planet..I'm trying to be good
I've made mistakes, I've took a lot consequences that I wasn't responssible..
I've had a pretty strong mentality, but I feel like I lost it...I'm totally
broken for sure...It's a hard thing to explain especially when your just a
normal guy that hasn't got the best english..I really love this girl, I believe
I will love her to the rest of my pathetic life, because im praticly living
on a prayer, I've been alone so long that I cant even say I felt anything, but
pain the past few years..Yeah it sounds so childish I know..A guy falls in love
screws things up and now he regrets it i'm disguisted of myself, because the
other me would, come on dude cheer up, nothing happend your young you have your
life infront of you, you'll meet other women and you'll be happy.I dont think
I will love a girl like this anymore...This opportunity, this feeling comes
once in a lifetime..If somebody loved anybody more than himself, they would know
what I am talking about..Wouldn't share my thoughts like this in public but I
am willing to take a shot and see what happends what people would tell me..
I would like to say something towards this girl I WILL ALWAYS LOVE..
The days that I havent seen your face are the worst days in my life, they are
making me grow older, I would never hurt you again, as I did before...
I was one selfish bastard, that had his own problems but he dealed with them.
The point is that I didn't know what to do and I hurted you not on purpose
I was young and stupid I will regret this thing my entire life. I think about you
baby, I dream about you, I had the most beautiful dream, that you were still
with me baby..I loved girls after you, but never loved a girl as strong as I loved
you...I've been hurt through some awful ways that I dont wish any of you be hurted
I'm fine I am really fine dont need any help, but I'm just not happy and this emptiness
inside me is killing me day by day, I can't tell if I deserve it but I'm doing
my best I'm to be the best I can with all the people I know, yeah i've been a
dick to a lot of people, I regret a lot of words that I cant bring back, I'm really
sorry If I abused somebody..I know usually a sorry doesn't makes things up
But I've did what I could to be forgiven from most people, Love is Evil
Spell it backwards (Evol) It always hurts, but this hurt I'm feeling now
Its worth it I prefer feeling hurt instead of being with another girl than you,
Sunshine.....